I welcome you inside to the demons that try to conquer me.
Inspired by: a yearn for the days when "fun" wasn't getting drunk and/or high/wrath over some girl's sexual ventures/
lyrics
She simply got a loosened definition of teen abstinence
After hours slogan' Budweiser and giving' half a shit
I never thought my life would slip away its grip
Now I'm meanderin' and savagin' attention like a kid
Riding bicycles to parma, now I'm catching' up on karma
Leave my happiness hibernated until I reach the farther side of things
These thoughts tickle, in the Middle like I'm Malcolm
Askin' God why has he left me in a drought, why all these outcomes
I need a prudent shoulder, not a slut or a fake bitch
Who creeps into my life, makin' all my problems make sense
But I got a side of me, that's adjacent to the fakeness
You hear the mainstream music but I got another playlist
I welcome you inside to the demons that try to conquer me
I wanna quit sinnin' man; these promises are obsolete
Forgive me God I've sinned with the excuse I'm growin' up
I miss the days when mama came home now I'm throwin' up my guts
Cobra clutch me in your grasp
Not a cut class addict
But these thoughts keep on affectin' my perception soon I'll crack bits
And pieces of my self-control, just keep me hold
I never wanna go back to the place I used to call my home
I know she's sittin' in gold, but the cold current is killin' me
Feelin' my friendships splittin' in half like some geometric symmetry
Eighth grade year, hit the creek and then the movies, gettin' groovy
In the basement with no beers or no hoopty
What the fuck is up
Fun is only shuttin' up
Smokin' the reef
Chokin' on cheep cigarettes to feel the beat knock our feets
I'm screamin' deep in the hollow surface, don't know what's worth it
Think I'll just purchase some substances to feel my urges
credits
from Vicarious,
released March 1, 2015
Shoutout to pictochat for the sample. The beat was sampled from one of his songs.
Brain Rapp’s recent album deals with the ups and downs of real life: health scares, bad breakups and newfound love. Bandcamp New & Notable Oct 10, 2017